Lonliness

My heart feels empty tonight. I long for the company of those I love. I wish I could hug my dear friends again that I have not seen in months. I remember all the good times we spent together, and it feels like I will never experience that level of camaraderie ever again. I feel distant from all of them and their lives now. I don't feel like a part of their lives at all anymore. I feel forgotten. Even by God sometimes. I know one should not trust feelings though. But logic is not to be trusted either. Like all things in life, balance is key. But I digress. I feel alone. But this too shall pass, or so they say. Who "they" are, I have no idea. Hopefully "they" know what they're talking about. I sit here listening to some soothing music from Sigur Ros, and it reminds me of listening to that music on my small little mp3 player in Oakwood Hall. It reminds me of spending time with my friends. I miss them. If anyone reads this I'm sure it just looks like rambling, but I just need to write it down. I need to let it out. I cling to the thought of one day seeing all my dear friends again at once in my father's glorious kingdom. On that day I will cry more tears than I have ever shed. Tears of happiness will flow for those I thought I had lost long ago, and we will embrace in love, and be surrounded by the love of our God, our savior. I will not await that day here on earth in agony. I will live life here to the fullest. But on a night like tonight, I will delve into my memories, and I will long for that day. I pray everyone I love will be there on that glorious day.